I'm tired of this sh*t

"Being an artist is exhausting. Being in school for a long time is exhausting. I just want to graduate. I just want to make art. I just want to make my parents proud and show them that all of this was not for waste. Why am I doing this? Who am I doing this for? Myself? Someone else? I just want to create, but I can feel it leaving, and it's scaring me. This is all I know. Art is all I know. I don't even know if I'm good at it, but it's all I know. It's all I know, yet I'm just so, so tired." -- Memories of what it felt like making this piece